I lost about 11 kilos first half of the year.
Since we put the house on the market, and all the stress that involved... I've gained it all back.
I'm bloody hopeless at dieting.... staying on track. I feel like giving up forever.
What's the point of yo-yo'ing for bloody years, and getting all depressed about it?
Just accept I'm going to be a fat tart and get over it. Accept me as I am or don't ... I'm too crabby to care anymore.
SERIOUSLY? I don't know. It's how I feel TODAY. Maybe tomorrow I will feel differently, but right now I just feel defeated ... by MYSELF. It is my fault. TOTALLY.
I don't cope with shit well... I turn to food to cope. Only I just make things harder for myself. I am going to hate this summer, just like I've hated summer for the past 9 years.... cos when you are overweight, you REALLY feel the heat.
Add bloody hot flushes into the mix! Even worse. SO. MUCH. WORSE.
So, that's me for now. In a downer. SORRY for being a whinger.
Taking Keera to Daycare in a couple of hours, then I can sew...and have shit go around and around in me head. Self loathing mostly.
2.54 pm: my day so far...
went to the mall for last minute stuff for presents.
Bought two more fans for the house, as all of our's are IN BLOODY STORAGE. grrrrr.
Had a healthy lunch, followed by Christmas cake. *sigh* Couldn't resist it.
Sewed the last puppy blankets. Moved the puppies into the garage, where it's cooler, and they will have more room once they are mobile.
ABOVE: my babies.... well ... I share them with Tallulah! They are starting to get fluffy... and some are really attempting to walk.
I will try and get a short video of that soon.
Stew finishes work tonight, and will be 'on holiday' for the next two weeks.
We shall not be going away due to the puppies being here. We can't leave them home alone.
Got visitors due this evening. Hopefully Stew will be home when they get here.
Our visitors were Amanda, Andrew and their 4 kids. We had a very nice visit, shared dinner, the kids played happily, I took HEAPS of photos (as I do) and will share some tomorrow.
For now, we are all tired and ready for an early night. Quite a bit to do tomorrow in readiness for CHRISTMAS DAY!
End of Day: a hot, busy, tiring, emotional day.
Went over 10,000 steps today! AWESOME.