Last night was a bit rough.
I kept craving FOOD.
Anything would have done. But I resisted.
Cos I would have been so very pissed off with myself if I'd caved in to the cravings.
It is hard though. During the weekends we always have chips/dips/twistees etc while watching TV.
It's just a habit I have to give up. The end result is something I have to keep reminding myself is worth it.
And it is. I want that happy me back, the one who doesn't hate herself ... or her reflection in plate glass windows in town.
I don't care how long it takes, I'm gunna get back my self esteem and self worth and start looking after myself the best I can.
NO one else can do this for me but ME.
I'm gunna supervise while Stew plants those two trees.
And I'll give the garden centre a call and see if the other two have arrived yet. They did say they would be in by the end of the week.
Bex is going out today to buy pineapple. Some lady in the mall told her the other day that eating pineapple can bring on labour! I've never heard of that one before?
Heard of it? Might it work, or is it a crock of shit?
Right. That's me for now... I'll be back later.
The trees had arrived, so we went down and picked them up.
ABOVE: The joy of having a versatile vehicle! The kids held the bases so they didn't roll around on the way home.
Now Stew has to dig 4 holes... I feel sorry for him, truly I do.
ABOVE: All planted and ready to grow. The two trees we got today are quite a bit bigger than the two I got earlier on in the week... which is great as they are already a good size.
Hopefully in a couple of years they will be acting as a screen from the house-to-be over the fence.
Stew is now mowing the lawns and I'm thinking about what to cook the family for dinner...
Well I was going to cook chicken in a lemon sauce for dinner, but Stew wanted to do nachos... so I let him.
We can have the chicken tomorrow night.
His nachos were nice, I had some, but not a huge helping. Kept within my points for the day.
Been fighting temptation AGAIN tonight. Can't stop thinking of food, yet I'm not even hungry! Bad habits ... I had no idea it was this bad.
Even the healthy 'snacking' I did in the first 3 months of this year is not allowed with my pro point limit. Hopefully this craving at night settles soon.
End of Day: Well our section looks so lovely with the new trees and a freshly mown lawn. Thank you Darling, you ROCK.